Yong's Diary 1

Finally, i left 1 more paper and my war will end!


Actually, I realise that i really hate myself so much..

We will miss you forever, Teacher!

Today is a sad for everyone in MGS, Klang. Our kind hearted HeadMistress, Pn. Nabsiah bt. Bakar has retired. She was crying badly while she was giving her very last speech at MGS, the school she has teach for 5 years. Other than all the teachers, students and parents, the gardener and the guard too crying.

Take Care, Pn.Nabsiah! We will miss you forever and remember what you had taught us!

Is it a bad day?

今天觉得很失落，因为原本已答应要去韩国的妈妈，突然改变主意说不去了.. 好想大声的痛哭一场。

I feel so disappointed today because my mum who already promise to bring us go korea this year trying to cancel it. Feel like crying out now..

Micky YooChun

YooChunniie,

Don't care about what others say about you

You are still you!

That's the only thing you need to know.

=)

Stay Healthy!

And Happy!

Graduation.

Tomorrow will be my graduation day.
I am so excited. But i am sad at the same time.
Because i know i will leave my secondary school, teachers and friends.
Not to say i love my school that much, but for sure i love all my friends.
Even thought i hate some of the teachers in the school, but there are still some who loves me a lot.
I really thanked those who teached me a lot of moral value. =)
Anyway,
Thank You To All The Teachers and Friends. I appreciate what you have taught me.
Hope everyone will always stay healthy and smiling! =]

-yong-

Missing you

Sometimes, we will miss someone so much for no reason.

Why i know about that?

Because, I dont know why....

I miss you..

Appreciate, Or Regret.

Forever isn't exist in the world,
No matter how close are you with your friends,
How nice are you with your family,
We will still separate with each others one day.
Please appreciate what you have now,
there will be no more chances for you after lost it.

사랑한다,유천

No one know my blog, and i can just say whatever i wanted to say here.
Since no one is here, i think i can confess my feelings to a person i love before.
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Yoochun ar,
I fall for you before. Actually, the momment kaye told you that she loves you, i can feel my heart broke into pieces. I can do nothing but support her, because i know i am not brave enough as kaye do. I was thinking, maybe she will be the cup of tea of yours. But suprisingly, you rejected her. After i knew the reason you doesnt hope she fall for you, my heart stopped beating for a few second. You said you cant be friend with someone in love with you, it's hard because you are hurting her inside. At that momment, i know i should give up on you.
Maybe the love of mine to you, is just too deep. I cant just give up on you that easily. I still will search some news, some videos of you at the websites. I will still worry whenever something happened on you, i will still smiling whenever i see your smile. Really hard for me to give up everything in a sudden.
The day continued until last week, i found out that i have changed. I got no more searching the news of yours, I got no more thinking you that much, I got no more watching the videos of you that often. I know, my love for you started to decreases day by day. Even thought i am still smiling whenever i see your smile, but i know this will become a habits soon.
Yoochun ar,
Hope you will always be healthy and happy always.
And i will say this for the very last time. I Love You.
Take good care of your health, my friend. =)

-yong-

I will wait you no matter what!

Ahhhh..(I am not shouting) I should study my biology now. Next tuesday will be biology paper.. Hmm.. Just finish reading the comment yoochun, kaye and me posted at "Falling Apart". Feel moody now. As kaye said, yoochun will need a long long time to come back to his blog again. I will stay at yoochun's blog whenever i online but always feel dissapointed at the end. Hmm.. But i will still wait for him and kaye to online again no matter how long it will be! Just scare i will miss out when he online~
But I always believe in fate and faith. If i could meet him, i will meet him one day no matter what. =)

My English test

Last few days, I was having my English paper (1) for my trial SPM. Other than directed writing, got 5 more continuos writing for us to choose.
The 1st one is describe a scene at canteen. I know i am not that good in describing, and so i give up on the 1st one. Now come to the 2nd one, "After i finish read the letter, I cried out....." continuos story! I don't know what to continue to make the story intersting and so, i also give up one the 2nd one. Now come to the 3rd one, "If you were given a chance to become anybody, who you want to be and why?". That's the one i choose and i wrote there i hope to become my idol, Park Yoochun. Everyone were wondering why am i chosing a guy instead of girl, but for my buddy, they will know why. I often search some news about Yoochun and i think i can calculate as know yoochun kinda well. So, it's not hard for me to write the essay. The reason i hope to be him are because he's a good brother and a good son ( for me ), a guy that cares his team mate a lot, and also a guy that never give up and always keep the faith. There's so many things for me to write. I just use about 30 minutes to finish my essay. I know it's not too short and not too long, but for examinal, its counted as too short because we are given an hours to do that essay part. xD
Errm, back to the topic. Now it's the 4th tittle, [ oppss, i forget it ==!]. Dont care it, now proceed to no.5, Music. There's a lot thing for me to write about music. I can write all my experience in the band but i refuse to choose it. Music, for me it's cant be describe. So i must give up on it ~

I should sleep now. Yoochun today didnt online too. Hmm.. Good Night everyone!
Stay healthy and happy always! =)

-yong-

The Diary Of Our Love Story

The momment you reply I love you too

The love story of us began too

I wrote down every momment when i be with you

On the diary that I never show you

The first time we met each other

The first place we went together

The first time we hug together

The first time we kiss each other

The funny momment of us

The crazy momment of us

The sad momment of us

The happy momment of us

Everything I wrote down in my diary book

In our love story diary book

One day we might marry each other

And we will have our own son and daughter

At the time we grow older

Wrinkles become more and not lesser

I will take out my diary book

The book that I never show you

We will sit together and read together

And we will laughing at each other

Before I die i will pass it to our son and daughter

So the love story of us will always be remember.

-yong-

I am so sorry!

I think i should say sorry to all my online friends especially to my big sis, francesca.
Actually, I got my first love before. Even thought i dont really think that she's my first love. Yeah! I aren't typing the wrong words. It's a she. I think the reason i could met her is because of Fate. I still appreciate everything happened last time even i don't really like it and i think it's an ugly memories for me. So, i will tell out everything now.

I met her few years ago and i knew her because of Band! She's a trumpet player and i am the clarinetist. We were both junior even thought she's one year older than me. I couple with her last year during October. And i'm the one who chase her because of the "love at the first sight". I keep message her and she was always free to reply me. After 3 months, i told her that i fall for her. But she said she need some time to think about it. For sure my answer is Okay! No problem. We still chat for everyday but the think make me feel really pissed off is she always treat me like a stranger when we're at school. No matter how sweet the messages she have sent to me last night, she will still treat me as stranger on the next day.

One day, my mum read my message. My mum asked me who that fella is! I just stay quit and walk out from the house. At that momment, i know that the relationship between me and her is totally impossible. And i am really thinking hard about " our future". We still continued our life style like last time after this. We still message each other and nothing happen other than that.

Things continue until the end of the year. I started to avoid her after i realised that i am just admire her and not fall for her. I know i am cruel but there's the only things i can do at that momment. She didnt realise at first and soon, she knew about it. Everyday, she will message me even thought she know i wont reply her messages. She kept telling me how much she miss me but i didnt even reply once. She tried to called me but i didnt answer. She wrote on her blog how much she love me and the pain of thinking on someone who don't like her anymore. I hope to reply but still, nothing i do.

One day, i receive another message from her. She said she hope i will tell her even if i want to brake up with her. She don't want to continue the life like this. And finally, i reply her. I said, I want to brake up with you. She reply me why and i said, she stres me a lot and i am just admire her not love her. She reply me just few words. And that few words make me feel so sorry to her. She said, I am crying. She hope we're still friend and i said okay! But i didnt even reply her after these happened like last time. No matter she asked for my friends phone number, or just asking something bored, i DIDNT reply her once.

She wrote on her blog and called me to see it. This what she wrote there : "I think we shouldn't be friend. Not even a normal friend like last time. I wish you will get the happiness and May God Bless You. Goodbye, my ex-lover." That's my story. I really dont think that she's my first love. And so i tell francesca at LJ that i didnt even have my first love.

Big sis Francesca,
I am sure you're thinking that i am lesbian or i lie to you now. But i really didnt mean to bluff you because i don't really think that that's my first love. I am really sorry, big sis. I shouldn't lie to you. Sorry..

I hope she will forgive me. Even thought i know i deserve it but... I am really sorry. And that's the story between me and a girl that everyone called it as my first love.

I Love You.

I posted something on my facebook.
Some of my friend have reply me some comment
Some of them gave me some advice.
Even thought i don't know some of them, but they still very care about me.
This make me feel lovely, because i know i'm not lonely.
Everything happen so suddenly, including my love to you too i have it so suddenly.
Maybe someday i will regret i didnt tell how much i love you,
But i know everything i do is just for my lovely you.

Fighting!!

Many things happened on this few weeks.
A fight between me and my classmate for some reason, got ignored by friend, angry easily, loneliness came to me, a fight within me and my sister, and others.
Now, every bad things has over! I believe happiness will come to me soon! =)

Yoochun/ Xiah/ Hero, i know you too facing a lot of problem now.
As a friend / fans of you, i will support you for everything!
Fighting!! =)

Happy Birthday Buddy =)

JishuuuU!!!

Yong and Jishu!

SiewChin and Jishu

Jishu and Lifang

Dear : Jishu
Wow, i just realised that we already know each other for nearly 4 years [ 0.0 ]. And it's already the last year for our secondary school and we going to face our SPM soon. Hope you will get good result in you SPM for sure! And i too hope we will still be friends after these! There's too many memories between me, you, lifang and siewchin.

4 of us are like the identical twins. Hahhaha. Even though we doesnt look the same but our thinking, the way we speak, age [ >< ] will always be the same! Sometimes i really feel that 3 of you will be my only true friends at this world. Of course! Sometime we will argue but we have the same personality! We will forget everything after an hour or maybe until the next day i think [ >< ]. Hahaha. 4 of us love TVXQ so so much. You like Jaejoong, Siewchin love Xiah, I like Micky, and Lifang keep changing her mind all the way, so i don't really know who's the one she like. Hahahah. But i know the Song Hyun from FT ISLAND is the one she love at this momment. Hahahah.

We always share everything we have like our drinks, our food, our shirt, our idea, and our house! Hahahahha. You all always said i am just like Changmin, there's nothing important for me other than food. Hahahah. We always said you are just like Micky and Hero, because you're too fashionable! Hahaha. Lifang just like Xiah! She always talking some... jokes?? Can i calculate that as a joke? Because some time i dont even understand what she wanted to say [ >< ]. For siewchin, she have some combined personality of 3 of us. Hahaha. Sometimes she're just like lifang, sometimes me, and sometimes you! She's more complicated compare to 3 of us huh? And i still remember the 1st time i stayed at your house! I got scolded by my mum after reached home because suddenly make this decision! Hahaha

There's really a lot of memories "pop" out suddenly when i am writing this. Now another one come out from my mind >> The 1st time 4 of us go out together! Hahahaha. Really funny!
I am writing this because today is your birthday and i really hope 4 of us will remember the momment when we're together. And i too scare someday if i forget about this, I can come here when i am free and i will smile again when i see this post like now! =)

Jishu, My Buddy!
Happy Birthday!
I Love You, buddy! [ lifang and siewchin too =) ]

From : yong =)

I hate sorry

Everytime when i ask you will you love me
You will feel uncomfortable and look weird to me
I know what you want is friendship and only friendship
But you don't know what's the thing i want other than friendship
My eye trying to tell you love is all i want
But the only thing you can gave me is hurt
Why you can't spare some love for me?
Why can't you try to accept me?
I dont want listen any sorry
Just waiting what's the answer you will give me
But dissapointed still came to me
Right after you said i love her, sorry


"Sorry, sorry, sorry.. "
That's the only answer you can gave me after i love you for 4 years..
"I am so sorry.. "
You rejected me by using your sorry..
"Really sorry.. "
You told me you love her more than me..
"Sorry.. "
I walk away and leave you behind me..





-blue/yong-

Hey!!

Hey yoochun, i think so i did complete the misson you want me to do yesterday night. 0.0
Even though i didnt really complete it,but since she already understsood what i mean and so i called it as mission complete ><
And now.. I am going to study hard and try my best to get good result for my SPM as i promise you. =)
Hope to chat with you again!

And Kaye, I will always be there whenever you need me! =)
Don't to sad about things happen yesterday and cheer up!!

Yoochun & Kaye , Stay healthy and happy! Aza Aza Fighting!! XD

Hmm..

When i was chatting with yoochun just now, i thinking of something again.
I don't like to argue with my friend. I don't like loneliness appear. I don't like evreything i don't like. But how am i going to control this? I can do nothing... There's nothing i can do...

Hin Hua Band! WooooHoooo ~

Today i went for Hin Hua High School Band Concert!! =DD
Gosh!! I met my primary school friends there and also my cousin's girlfriend ><>< haha
So sad! I didnt bring my camera T_T
Nvm! Tomorrow i will go grab some photos from my friend! XDD
HinHua & Yoochunnie!! Aza Aza Fighting!!! (F5)

Pic of Me and My Sis =)

I love this pic the most XDDD

I love this shirt =)

Woohoo XDD

I look kinda cool =]

Smile =)

This 1 look nice too right? XD

Kill her!! >w<

My sis is a cruel girl ==

Try to use chopstick to defend myself ><

Dont try to make me angry huh!! ><

Bored! Let's took a nice pic =)

Another 1 =)

And another 1 =D

You Are Not Alone

Another day has gone

I'm still all alone

How could this be

You're not here with me

You never said goodbye

Someone tell me why

Did you have to go

And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself

How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

But you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone

Why, 'lone

Just the other night

I thought I heard you cry

Asking me to come

And hold you in my arms

I can hear your prayers

Your burdens I will bear

But first I need your hand

Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself

How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

For you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'

And girl you know that I'll be there

I'll be there

You are not alone

For I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

For you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

For you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

It's specially to Micky ~

You're not gonna be alone

Because cassiopeia is always there with you

=)

Sorry.. I'm so sorry..

MgsBand:
We lose the competition. I am so sorry. Really sorry. I really try my very best but we still lose. If my hand didnt injured, If my mace didnt drop, If i can spin my mace well, I think we can at least got number 3. Girls, I am so sorry. Really. Sorry and sorry and sorry, that's the only thing i can tell now.
SORRY!

-Yong-

Nervous.. TT_TT

The Formation Competiton for Selangor is tomorrow.
So so nervous.
Hope i will do it well and don't make people who support me so so much dissapointed.
Lastly,

TO: ALL THE BAND MEMBER

Thanks for your support! Tomorrow i will try my very best to do it! SarangHae!! =)

Smile Always Micky =)

You're the angel of everyone

And also the super star for everyone

You're the hero of everyone

And also the idol for everyone

But one day i saw you crying there

My heart too bleeding there

What can i do for you?

And what should i do for you?

I know i am far away from you

But i really hope i will be the one that wiping away your tears

I too know that's impossible

So i will just support you whenever and wherever



And the last things i wanted to tell you

Cassiopeia will always be there for you

=)

Back =]]

To Micky :

Everytime i will hold you tight in my dream

Even though i was just day dreaming

But there's the only way for me to feel you

And also the only way for me to love you

You're far away from me

But i always believe your heart just stay besides me

You're always there to share your love

And i always hope i will get a little of your love

But i know that is impossible

Because for you i am just a stranger

You're the super star of everyone

But i am nothing for everyone

As a small fans of you

I will always support what my super star do.



This is the 1st time i wrote a poem. Err... God Bless Me XD

Uhmm.. I will think again what's the best choice

Today,i read a novel. And the ending make of the novel me think of something.

Should i continue what i do last time?? I need to make a decison.