To : Micky [ A Fans Letter. ]

During the end of the year of 2005, my friend told me that she want to show me a very nice drama called "Dangerous Love". I watched it, and I was shock of Hero's look. He's the most beautiful man I ever seen! Haha! That time I keep search the news about him, and also DBSK. After 2 years, I'm not that interested of him as last time. But of course, searching the news of DBSK seems to be a habits for me when I free.

Think so should be the year of 2008, my friend show me another video of DBSK. It's about Micky's feeling to his brother. And that's the first time I started to notice a guy called 'Micky Yoochun'. He love his family. That's the first thought of me to him. He got his good point other than that after make some small small 'research' on him. He's fashionable. He can sing well, and dance well. His smile like a warm sun that will warm people heart. He's a bit sensitive and will cry easily. That's the result I get.

Last year, I accidently found out a blog of him at blogspot. I don't know is it him or might be some people just fake him. But i kept a hope on him and keep waiting him online. Maybe God take pity on me, I get a chance to talk to him. Can't imagine that how happy I was to chat with him. That time, I still remember that he told me :'if only i have a choice, is better not to be park yoochun on stage i don't have intention to make people confused'. I don't get what he trying to say still until today, but i will still leave some comment there when I free even thought he's gone and didnt come back to here again. There's some nice poem that make me always go there. One of my favourite is this, "Falling Apart".

The rain is falling from the sky
And I am alone tears in my eye
I see the sky turns to gray
As my dreams start to fade
Suddenly my mind were blank
That all I can see is dark
Emptiness in my heart
Tearing up every pieces of me
My soul has crashed
And my tears scattered
Every little thing I done
Seems not good enough
I always wrong in their eyes
They never see the good in me
Even it’s not my fault
They point fingers on me
I just want to be free
And express what I feel
I don’t want to hide
So I didn’t run away
But this pain they put in my heart
Never ends; never go away
It was like a gun, shot my heart
I need some light to shine on me
And save my heart from misery
I don’t want to be broken apart
So don’t let my heart falling apart…

I love this the most among the poems he create. =)

This is the poem I create last year. I create it when I saw his mood doesn't look good through his poem. Maybe it doesn't look good, but that's the very first time i create a poem. The title of the poem is 'Smile Always, Micky'

You're the angel of everyone
And also the super star for everyone
You're the hero of everyone
And also the idol for everyone
But one day i saw you crying there
My heart too bleeding there
What can i do for you?
And what should i do for you?
I know i am far away from you
That momment i really hope i am near to you
I too know that's impossible
So i will just support you whenever and wherever

And the last things i wanted to tell you
Cassiopeia will always be there for you
=)


Dear Micky, Hope you will stay healthy and happy always!

-Yong-

My National Service (NS) Letter, My Past, New Me.

Today, i received my NS letter. Before i opened it up, there's a lot of things pop out from my mind. Example :
'I will be lonely there, I will celebrate my birthday alone there, My 18 years old birthday will just over like that, My friends and family no one gonna visit me there'
My thinking is totally negative during that time. Tears too drop down without I realise. I always rely on others if something happened to me. I always try to run away from the problem and never try to face the problem. I always blame on others if something goes wrong. I will not admit and face it but choose to denied it run away from it. Maybe i am 18 years old after my birthday, but my mind is always 8 years old.
A kid will not responsible on anything. A kid will be loved by everyone. A kid can choose to blame on others if something happen. A kid can denied when something he did goes wrong. I have all the personality that a kid have.
I don't want to study the course my dad choose for me, because i want to let him know that i dont need him to decide everything for me. Maybe, i purposely choose the course he think that is no future to make him angry. Maybe, i purposely choose mass communication just to let him know that i can still do it without him.
But, i forget something important. I forget that parents only give everything BEST to their children. Sometimes, they might forget about the freedom they should give to their children at the right time, but that is 1 of the way the protect their children. I always think about my parents didnt give me freedom, they like to decide everything without asking me, they dont respect me, and many things else.
I am wrong. Totally wrong now. I am regret at this momment. But no one know. I should study hard since Form 1 to Form 5, but i didnt. I should give up something i interested with during exam, but i didnt. I should study hard during SPM, but i didnt. Now result cames out and my result is worst. I blame on this and that, but i always forget to blame myself.
I really hope that they will forgive me and give me another chance. I will study hard for my Form 6, be more confident to myself, be more descipline, and also be more independent.

Sorry. (SiowYong)

Time Past Fast ~

There's long long time ago for the last time i am here. I still remember, that time i created this blog just to 'follow' yoochun's blog. When talk about this, memory started to flash back to the time me and my online friends chat together with yoochun, yunho and changmin at his blog. There's a lot of topic we have talked about. Like how yoochun 'accidently' told yunho that ahri love him, what yoochun always hope to do, and some others. I was really happy during that night. But after that night, yoochun didnt come back to his blog anymore. He's gone. I will still leave some comments on his blog everytime i free even today, because i always believe that 1 day he will be back to here again. He will felt sad if he realise no one waiting for him there, that's what i thought. Someone told me that he might be fake, but i always choose to believe that he's yoochun. No fake and No real. A normal guy that loves to sing that name yoochun. I believe that. =)

TVXQ, Always keep the Faith. Fighting!!! =D